Letter to Diane

   I’m curious about this “you can control everything in your life thing”.  What do you mean by that?  Do you mean that you can actually control what happens to you or that whatever happens you can control how you respond to it?  I’ve heard and read the latter argument in several places and it seems to make sense, but personally I can’t really grasp it yet.  It’s still hard for me to control how I react to things I guess.  But I’m really excited to hear what you have to say about it.

    And I also understand what you mean about not living life to the fullest.  And the weekends, there are things about them I look forward to, and other things that I really do not look forward to.  Some of the best times in life are times spent with people you care about, so I look forward getting to hang out with my friends and talk with them and such; when I can have really good talks then the weekends are worth it…but the other weekend stuff, I don’t know, I’m kind of tired of all the bullshitting.  I don’t really even drink anymore…not that I think drinking is bad, if it’s not hurting people…just like prostitution.